Hello everyone. Today was my biopsy. Talk about uncomfortable. I won't find out anything for two weeks. It seems like infertility is nothing but a waiting game that always results in disappointment. I know the waiting will be worth it in the end, but there are some days when it is just hard. I came home from the doctor's and slept for a couple hours. Not because I was tired, but because I just didn't want to think about it. It was just a hard day. I was flooded with thoughts starting about "what if...".
What if this biopsy doesn't come back normal?
What if I can't carry a baby?
What if this is the end of the road?
I tried to not let it bother me, but today, it was just hard. I am currently on 9 medication/vitamins. None of them are even fertility medicines right now. Every time I take a pill, I can't help but think about everything that is going on. I know that everything I am on is going to help in the long run, but the constant reminders are a lot to take each day.
I don't really have it in me to write much more today. I just wanted to give everyone a small update. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers, we sure could use them.
-J
This video gives a glimpse into what it is like to suffer with infertility.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=JqfGqOx2iDQ#!
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